Monday, January 31, 2011

One Year Ago Today...

So it was one year ago today, January 31st, that I drove off into the winter sunset of the Michigan country-side totally unaware of how my life would change in the coming two weeks, and six months.

Only now, 365 days later, am I starting to be able to accept that-that part of my life is over and begin to move on. Only now can I begin to piece things together without being rendered numb with pain. I am only now being able to put my life into another gear and dimension. I still have numerous questions un-answered, and some severely raw emotional wounds. Time will heal and answer those questions. I have since met some of the most amazing people who have helped me through these last 12 months.

I have no regrets, as the last 5.5 years have been one of the most amazing and unforgettable periods in my life. I had an unmatched best-friend for 4.5 of them, and she will be sorely missed. Things change, and apparently so do people. This I learned on Valentines Day 2010. This is where I think I mentally checked-out for at least a few months just so I could function at work "normally". It've been one half-decade learning experience for me that I will never forget.

I still care about her immensely and wish her nothing but success and happiness in her future. She's worked so hard, she deserves all she gets. Life however is a funny thing. People change and blind-side you, even when you supposedly "saw it coming". It can change your perception of them completely and harshly thrusts you into a new dimension of failure. Failure is not something I deal well with at all. Hence, the year-long grievance process. Healing, and moving on, come with time. Time is starting to shine a warmer, happier beam of light on me lately. This is a sign of positive changes possibly brewing in the future.

She owns a piece of my heart forever. Even though she would never admit it, I think I may be somewhere deep, deep inside of her's...hidden somewhere.

God Bless, and God Speed-Good night and good luck.

Monday, January 17, 2011

2011: A Month and Half Later

So here we are on the evening of January 17, 2011. I haven't made a blog-post here since December 1st, 2010. My did I ever take a leave of absence from this parcel of internet property.

Christmas break featured a two-week absence of work for me that while being amazingly relaxing, seemed at the same time to by-pass me all too fast. I had planned a wonderful and highly extensive New Years Eve post with all the trimmings of what 2010 (one of the most momentus and tumultous years of my life) had been. Days of editing never came to fruition and a horrific stalemate met the midnight hour separating December 31, 2010 and Janurary 1, 2011. There I was, one month void of any meaningful remarks on here, more-so ANY remarks on here.
I feel as though I've done 2010 a massive injustice by not posting that piece. While it was one of the most important and poignant years of my life, it passed by deceptively fast and stealthily. There is so much from that year that absolutely bears comment, commendation and re-telling, while at the same time, it seems so empty. It would be a tradgedy if I did not re-tell of it. So instead of nothing, I will eventually give you all (how few you may be) an account of the year that was...and wasn't.

I hope this long weekend celebrating the life and work and efforts of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. has treated you well. Remember to keeo with you his spirit and hope.

God Bless-